today, i decided to work efficiently since i leave school at 12:15 anyways.
BUT, nothing happened.
this was because i found a hk mv that could relate to me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ozEZsQ6faQ

i found it very emotional, and was about to start crying. its about a trio group of girls, who were best friends. then, one of them decided to start dating with this guy. as a consequence, one of her friends gets jealous and starts to have this anger against her. i believe i can relate to that. recently, i have been watching my friends date. i feel lonered. jealous. i envy them. i would chuck a tantrum as well if they decided to ditch me. i cannot stand watching my friends leaving me for someone else.

now thinking, watching my really close friends, one by one, leaving me, i feel lonely. i feel like a lonely ant, crawling around, helplessly looking for food. so... insignificant.

but then, i dont believe in dating. yet. i will soon enough though.... (ie, after the hsc). honestly, i rarely talk to girls anymore. hopefully, i will find my perfect being in uni.